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(un)Certanty
Feb. 7th, 2007 | 01:08 am
location: 7th Circle of Hell
mood: 
confused
music: Pennyroyal Tea - Nirvana
Im confused about everythingWhat seemed to be certain has follen to pieces and uncertanty, once again, comes to the spot light.
Here is the thing:
I havent behave quite well with two friends.. i did something i should have never done, but i did not mean any harm. I just needed to be away from them to try to solve another unsolved chapter of my life.
Now i do not know how to face the situation.. i dont feel like apologizing, well actually yes i do, but not like i regret what i done, but not letting them know what was happenning. It is like a big misunderstanding.
I want them to know how much i love and care about them, but i need them to understand me too.
Anyway, that is not all that annoyes me.
Im feeling the pressure of having to apply for a scolarship to travel abroad.
I really want this with all my heart. But the thing is that my heart is also herem where home is.
It seems really unimaginable the idea of spending 10 moths 9000 km away from home, friends, family, school mates,my things... It actually kind of scares the shit out of me. What if i wanna come back? What if someone needs me? What if i need someone? What if something changes? What if i miss something important?
Damn it, im scared of not being strong enough to face it. In a couple of weeks, im gonna have my answer for YES or NO.Definitely I WANT A YES, but i admit im scared of it.
OMG im sooooo down right now. in addition to all of this i just found out i got a B on my FCE exam :( thats really a bummer. I expected a little more, a Pass with Merit. And these really makes me feel horrible :(
The stupid school wouldn't make me practise enough!!! i like, told them that i wasn't ready and they kept telling me i was.. i knew this was coming :(
I cant really write anymore, im really pissed and annoyed and rather sad...
4 comentarios:
...continuando con lo que decía en el comentario anterior...sabes Lu que con el tiempo me di cuenta que la vida es un poco un compendio de pequeños fracasos de los cuales vamos aprendiendoy de los que surge de vez en cuando algún éxito. Gracias a los fracaso aprendemos a vivir...así que es muy normal lo que te sucede...pobre de aquellos que se dicen ser "EXITOSOS" ...JA..JA!
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